Bec

my brain doesn't want to function.

2005-07-25T06:18:52Z

I'm so sick of uni, and we've only been back for a week, i just can't be bothered with anything right now

Right now i feel like this...

b_wild @ 2005-07-19T16:48:00

2005-07-19T06:55:45Z

I love my iPod...

that's all i have to say.

P.S. I don't know how it escalated into the series of unfortunate events that took place between us, but i knew it wasn't worth losing a good friend over. So KJ, i really am sorry.

far out...

2005-07-08T02:20:49Z

There's something terribly wrong here, i've never felt like this before, i'm beginning to obsess about my weight. Seriously what's wrong with me, i feel about as fat as that kid looks. OK not that fat, but the point remains, i'm concerned. Is it true what they say...you put on all the weight over winter, or is it because i have won the heart of my man and no longer need to woo him...no, it's just because i'm lazy. WOW...listen to me. Oh well, i have free use of the facilities at Kooyong TC, pool, gym, tennis & squash courts, so i'll get stuck into it there...Phew, there's still time.

b_wild @ 2005-06-17T16:52:00

2005-06-17T06:58:06Z

WHOOT!

I now work at the Kooyong Lawn Tennis Club, everyone be happy for me, i no longer am involved with fast food! I went for my interview today and she's like:

"do you know how to use a coffee machinne?"
-no
"do you know how to pour tap beer?"
-no
"do you know how to serve wine?"
-no

...oh well...you're hired...when can you start

so now i start on wednesday

what's with this craze to be waifer thin...i don't get it.

2005-06-04T00:48:33Z

how bizarre

2005-05-31T04:40:06Z

i had this really strange dream last night
i started out as a contestant in the amazing race which would be awesome!!
then i had to find one of the clues and it was at the bottom of this really murky river somewhere in europe
nick and i got the clue first and were winning so we left for our next destination
we ran to this house, an elderly couple asked us in
nick stayed there to get dry
but i went to the pub around the corner, still dripping wet, because it looked familiar
then i'm like, "mel's been here!..wait...she's not far, just around the corner"
so i hurried back to get nick and go see mel...
but then i woke up...

'twas very strange indeed

i didn't get to see you mel!
sigh, i'm missing you.

miss you mel

2005-05-14T06:18:28Z

I'm so glad you forgave me for being such an idiot!!!

Now. You can remember me like this...

Like this...

BUT YOU CAN ONLY CHOOSE ONE...TAKE YOUR PICK.

let it be known - talk is cheap

2005-05-08T02:11:04Z

actions speak louder than words...

(this one's for you kj)

but seeings how i'm apparently single now
i decided to go out on the town.
given the expression on my face
perhaps i didn't reasise what i was doing.
i really am working my way through those scotch boys hey...

good times...

it's been a while...here's something random...

2005-04-12T08:10:32Z

I'm going on a summer holiday...

2005-03-26T23:23:41Z

well i kind of missed the whole summer holiday thing, but autumn is close enough.
so nick and i are driving to sydney today with a car full of easter eggs. i love easter....but oh so much chocolate. i've had too much chocolate already. too much, i feel sick. but it's just so good...mmmm...well as i nurse my injuries from the frantic pushing and shoving that went on during the mega easter egg hunt here at my place and gnaw away at this huge chocolate bunnies ear i hope you all had a great easter...

by the way i won the easter egg hunt...two eggs more than heath and twice as many as jess. whoot.

what the hell is wrong with me...

2005-03-18T13:10:26Z

so now that i'm done wallowing in my own self pitty, i'm going to take control of my life and listen to the words of a wise man:

"do not ever act like ure helpless and things are happening to u that u cant control. u are a powerful girl and u control every part of your life. sometimes u just choose not to.. and thats where u trick ureself and feel helpless and get down"

so for starters i quit sumo, had enough, gonna find something better, that'll make me much happier.

really gonna get my ass into gear at uni.

stop getting frustrated with inanimate objects.

and i'm just gonna live each day as it comes...

b_wild @ 2005-03-18T12:43:00

2005-03-18T01:44:00Z

I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING!

b_wild @ 2005-03-17T11:28:00

2005-03-17T00:40:58Z

so guess came into sumo the other day and said they applied for a job: juz
for all those who don't know, her and shanelle made up this story that nick was sending them messages saying he wanted to have sex with shanelle and whatever.
now maybe it's just me but going out with a guy for 2 months then being utterly obsessed with him, and i guess trying to break him up with his girlfriend of over a year through stupid lies, is really sad.
i'm glad i trusted nick...who said i was insecure?
so now that he erased them from his life, they send a message apologizing for what they did, expecting to make it all better. i don't think so.
so anyway, juz has the audacity to come up to me asking whats happening with the job, then say sorry for all the shit she and shanelle caused. fuck why can't they leave us alone. man i was so angry i could have punched her.
there's one application i never want to see again, but hey if she did work there i'd be her boss. ha.
i'd be glad if they fell into a black hole somewhere and never returned.

photo's coming soon

2005-03-16T00:51:40Z

my head kinda hurts from the severe lack of sleep i've been having, or rather not having
and the alcoholic beverages which found their way into my system over night,
thank you jean,
i won limbo, i am so great.
working heaps and going out to a few uni night,
then i'm off to new zealand with my boy for a bit
i am so in love with him its sickening

...don't miss me too much.

i'm bored and am forced to entertain myself by writing meaningless crap

2005-03-09T00:55:35Z

Well now that uni's back and everyone's settled in...oh wait i forgot, no one's going to uni this semester. They're off trekking around the world, in Barwon Heads, raking in the money doing a hundred hours a week or graveyard shifts (haha) and just chillin.
I have so much homework!
At least there's this hot German guy in my buyer behaviour tut., an awesome lecturer and i found this friend from first year arts again whose actually in corp. law & trust with me, little leigh, skevies boy. Don't hate him.
Well i'd better get back to work, my future awaits...
So for the moment remember that by raising your legs slowly and lying on your back, you can't sink in quicksand.

life is just life, i need to live more

2005-03-02T09:40:18Z

deep inside i wanna cry.
i wish so much that i could remember my dad
love him like i know i used to
but now all that i know makes me cry,
i'll go riding on the horses
and if i fall he'll pick me up.
i know i'm stronger than that though
i can look after myself
or at least i'll just keep fooling myself.
i need reassurance so much
i need to be told what i already know (i love you)
i can't stand rejection
i want to live an amazing life
and i want to be myself
nick's the only one who see's the real me.
poor boy.
from the tears and tantrums
love and affection
envy
lust
pride
ignorance
anger
love.
if this is a dream, i never want to wake up.
he keeps me going
(and holds me back)
i need my friends. all of you.
i miss mel.
i miss school
but uni's ok, why can't i apply myself?
i really love going to the gym
it's just the self motivation which is my let down
the peole at sumo are great
the works terrible.
i need to live more, have fun, be happy more
i just want to drop everything and go away.
nick have you made up your mind yet?

red vs blue

2005-02-23T07:26:56Z

- does anyone know why i have gathered you here today?

- the war's over and we're going home?

- that's exactly it, the war's over we won, it turns out you're the big hero and we're holding a parade in you're honour. i get to drive the float and simmons here is in charge of confetti.

- i'm no stranger to sarcasm sir...

b_wild @ 2005-02-22T17:39:00

2005-02-22T07:17:07Z

...give it up for the wonderful work of the POWERPUFF GIRLS

They're here to save the day,

but don't let their sweet and innocent looks

hide their violent, crazy nature,

these girls are much like me in that sense.

They look so little, but they sure pack a punch.

Watch out boys.

*** * mind you SUPER TED will always be a hero in my eyes..i love you ted

b_wild @ 2005-02-18T17:01:00

2005-02-18T06:02:48Z

i need a new job.

why do i have to be the horny bitch.

2005-02-15T08:19:21Z

man...i think tere's something wrong with me...or nick, i cant work out which one of us is the freak, i can't help it, he make's me want it...then he denies me. bastard.

isn't it funny how we got together through the work of a drunken night at the hawthorn and a not so subtle purchase of a pack of condoms by mel...

...oh well, at least it's clear which path we've gone down.

you only turn 20 once

2005-02-13T09:24:49Z

i had THE BEST time last night...thank you to everyone. the company was great, the alcohol was flowing and the pressies were fantastic. seriously, i love my friends, i just have the best time with them, you, whatever. thanks guys. that absinth didn't last very long but it was potent stuff for a little person such as myself. ah, good times, i've got some great photos which i'll get up eventually. thanks kj for the milk and melon, tasty stuff. my god was there a mess in the morning, i'm sending a bill out to everyone to split the costs of cleaning the carpets and the two glasses which were broken. anyways my friends, i don't know if anyone besides kj (and mel & char when they can) reads my posts, but i'll still write them and tell you that lifes shit, or how great it is, or how awesome you all are...

b_wild @ 2005-02-12T12:38:00

2005-02-12T01:46:28Z

YAY! it's my partay tonight, i'm so excited...

i plan to have a fucking awesome time, party hard and get nicely toasted (KJ you may finally see me really drunk) well...that's it...just thought i'd let you all know how pumped i am. catch you all tonight.

farewell.

p.s. if anyone comes dressed as scanky as Paris Hilton, ready to put out i'll send them your way jimmyk.

yeah sory, i was bored...maybe you'll learn something new about me though

2005-02-05T06:23:56Z

100 HuNdReD QuEsTiOnS

1. Name: Rebecca Jais Steward
2: Nicknames: bec, b, polly pocket, horny bitch
3: Eyes: blue
4: Height: 5'2
5: Hair: brownish i guess, it's kinda lots of colours
6: Siblings: heath-18, jess-10
7: Do you like to sing in the shower? yeh doesn't everyone
8: Do you like to sing in the toilet? hell no, now thats kinda weird
10: Sign: Aquariou
11: Address: High st Glen Iris 3146
12: Sex: clearly i'm a chick
13: Righty or lefty: righty
14: What do you want in a relationship most: a mighty fine body, tanned, bit of money to spend on me, romantic at times, funny, clever, faithful, loving, friendly...hmmm...that's all i can think of at the moment. i don't know how nick measures up to all that...
15: Have you ever cheated?: never and i never would, i see no point in it
16: Single: nope, sory boys i'm off the market
17: Do you have a car: what you mean my shitty piece of crap, then yes, at least it gets me from A to B
18: What kinda a car do u want?: there's so many, don't ask me to decide
19: Movie: right now i wanna get Dirty Dancing
20: Song: Five - bye bye bye
21: Band/singer: i dunno, stop asking me questions
22: The L word: Love
23: Actor: hmm... thats a pickle, thers lots
24: Actress: hmm... thats a pickle, thers lots

25: Food: donuts + hot dogs...ha...no, i'd say chocolate, diet coke, pasta, oh i feel like pasta

26: Number: 2
27: Letter: b
28: Cartoon: futurama, the simpsons
29: Disney: Bugs Bunny
30: Are you in love: maybe...yes
31: Do you plan to have children? yeah
32: Do you want to get married: yeah
33: How old do you wanna be when you married: excellent question, dunno the answer though

34: Would you have kids before marriage: no
35: How many kids: 3, but i guess that can change very easily
36: Do you have a b/f or g/f: sure do
37: Do you have a crush: yes, i swear i'm still like a school girl with a crush
38: Music/T.V.: music
39: Guys/Girls: guys
40: Green/Blue: blue
41: Pink/Purple: pink AND purple
42: Summer/Winter: they both have pro's and con's
43: Night/Day: Day, but night's good also
44: Hangin Out/Chillin: Chillin
45: Dopey/Funny: Funny
46: Weird Saying I have: nuttin really
47: What school: Sacre Coeur
48: Have you ever had drugs?: nope
49: What's a major turn on for you? anything really, i'm shocking, a sucker when it comes to turn ons
50: How far would you go on a first date: depends
FRIENDS:
51: Most blonde: Loz
Nicest: Jean
Funniest: KJ
Happiest: Jean
Strangest: KJ
Most Caring: Bec
Tallest friend: none of them are exeptionally tall
Smartest: Bec
Most mature: *cough*..... next question
52: Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? Nick, Bec, Jean, Mel, KJ
55: What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? not having sex
57: Are you happy: yeh
58: why? why not: life's pretty cruisy at the moment
60: Love or Lust: love
61:Silver or gold: silver
62: Diamond or pearls: diamonds
63: Sunset or sunrise: sunset but sunrise is lovely on a nice day
64: Have you ever gone skinny dipping: no...i so want to though
65: Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yeah, my teddy
66: piercings: 6
67: What colour underpants are your wearing right now: bright red bonds ones, theyre so cool
68: What song are you listerning to right now: Dragostea Din Tei...funny shit

69: What are your last 4 digits of your phone number: 1587
70: Where would you want to go on your honeymoon: somewhere i mould be waited on, somewhere we could relax together and well, you know...
71: Who do u want to spend the rest of your life with: someone i love unconditionally
72: What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: their smile
73: Favourite sport? netball, but i'll play anything really
74: what makes you happy: my friends, nick
75: What's the next cd you're going to buy? not a clue
76: Do you wear contacts or glasses? nothing
77: The best advice given to you? go hard or go home, seriously if you're gonna do something make it worth your while. "has anything you've done in your life made you better off?"
78: Have you ever won a special award? nothing so special, just loads of tropheys, medals and ribbons from school, equestrial, netball and swimming
79? What is your future goals: uni, travel, work. have fun.
80: Worst sickness u ever had: allergic to pethadine
81: Do you like funny or scary movies better? funny, but i like to scare the shit out of myself
82: On the phone or in person? in person
83: Hugs or kisses? both is best
85: If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? hmmm...whoever, it's a free for all
86: Greatest fear? being burried alive
88: Be rich or famous: rich
90: Have you ever been in love? yep
91: Have you met santa: no, i thought i saw him one night but i wasn't sure

92: If E.T knocked on your door holding up a peace sign and asked you to use your phone, what would you do? when it happens i'll tell you
93: Last time you talked to the person you like: today
94: Do you have pets: dog - Rosie, cat - Tammy, rabbit - Flopsy
95? Whats your email address? maccas_chick_@hotmail.com
96: Last time you were depressed: when i failed a couple of uni subjects
98: When's your birthday? 06/02/85
100: Who do you want to be? someone succesful, i wanna be rich so i can afford the lifestyle i want.

so expensive...yet so worth it...the night is whatever you make it, so make it a good one...

2005-02-01T08:10:18Z

Georges Long Room

162-168 Collins Street

Melbourne Vic 3000

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*G/Hopper.Cocktl $15.00

*Daiquiri.Cocktl $12.00

*Rusty Na.Cocktl $15.00

*Asahi $6.50

*Misc Bev CAIPIRIOSKA $12.00

*Hoegaarden Tap $7.00

*Coopers Spark $6.50

*GL 04 Dog Pt SB $11.50

*Misc Bev $12.00

*Corona $7.00

*Misc Bev SEX ON THE BEA $12.00

*Jamesons $8.00

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Total: $136.50

* Indicates Taxable Supply

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31/01/2005 23:59

Johnny Items: 13

b_wild @ 2005-01-23T14:38:00

2005-01-23T04:08:55Z

so it's been a while hey...

life's just life at the moment, nothing greats happening, although i wish it were, then my life would be a little more worth while living. i dunno, i guess i'm just sick of the same old things happening. i need a change, there's so much more out there which i havn't experienced yet and it feels like i'm missing out. i love my friends and nick's ok i guess (just kidding you know you're da bomb) and i'm going to stick with uni, i want to get it done and out of the way, only 2 1/2 years to go...so i have to change something else.

i want to go traveling when i finish uni so everyones welcome to trek around the world with me, so thats on the cards for later. i've decided that the change i need at the moment will come in the form of property, my own property, whether it be a crappy dilapidated house, squashy 4 bedroom apartment or block of land (actually perhaps not the land...), just something that i can live in and call my own. move out with friends and have a fucking awesome time. so that's my goal by my 21st birthday, i've got a year to do it, and i'm going to dammit, you just wait and see!!

so i regret to inform you that i will be stingy and cheap, much like pete, perhaps not so much now that he has a job, but you know what i mean...must save money! that's my plan for the year.

might i add that there are some fucking retards in this world, people who like to cause trouble and mess with others just for there own amusement, i don't like it...kj i think katrina is being so rude and malicious towards you, it's just not right, she's rubbing it in your face to make her feel better about herself which is just cruel...i'm fucking sick of hearing shanelle's name so i'm glad nick's given up trying to tie up loose ends. despite what he says she's not over him, she needs a reality check, they went out like 2 years ago for a couple of months, thats it, i wish she'd just have left him alone then, it would have made life a hell of a lot easier for everyone, but hopefully she'll get the picture and her and juz will leave us alone now...nick, go easy on getting your revenge, people don't just forget things or being hurt like you seem able to do...sorry to bitch but i had to make it known, i've had enough and i'm ready to move on.

i don't want to make anyone angry, i just want to have fun now...i think it's about time i enjoyed life. i reckon everyones had a pretty shit couple of weeks recently so i say to hell with the past, lets start a fresh new year again. mt martha on wednesday will be my second new years, i'm going to start 2005 again and have fun!

peace out all you sexy mo fo's...